Saturday, December 31, 2011

Happy new year!

Sam stayed up till 11:45 for his first new year! I'd say that's pretty good! He hates loud noise so maybe it's best!
We spent the new year with macie, Kj, and Eva with my parents and lydie. We didn't do much in particular, just enjoying each others company. Family time is always a good time.
Sam started doing a new communication thing that when he wants something a whole lot he pumps his arm up and down really fast and breathes really fast. It's super cute.
2011 has been a great year. One of the most fun of my life. If a list could sum it up here it is...

-Sam entered into our lives nice and early July first. Blessing straight from heaven. Can I say that again? Blessing straight from heaven.
-I got to give birth With out an epidural the way I have always dreamed of. And I loved every bit of it.
-Zach got another year of college under his belt. And decided to work towards becoming an English professor. He loves it.
-I survived being pregnant. Nausea for 9 months was pretty rough but oh so worth it. Zach was super husband. I did few if any dishes during that time.
-Zach worked at Sanpete messenger, the county paper. That always kept him on his toes.
- I know there are many eventful things that took place throughout the year but it would take quite some time to document. We are so grateful that our little family became a family of three and that we have such wonderful family and friends around us. It has been a wonderful journey.
2012 here we come!

Wednesday, December 28, 2011

So fun

So, since being a mom I often wonder "what did I do with all my time before becoming a mom ?" now a days I play with Sam and take care of him on top of doing all the things I did before I had a baby! And life seems just so in sync. The answer ? Motherhood has brought so much purpose into my life. I love focusing on my little family and working hard for them. I love waking up and knowing exactly what I need to do right when I need to do it. I love everything about motherhood and family life. I can't think of anything better I could be using my time for. And for that matter I can't think of anything that is more fun! I just feel so grateful and happy to be in this season of my life. Motherhood hardly feels like a sacrifice because I feel so alive and purposeful and happy. Life is not perfect. Everybody knows that, but one think I do know is that being a mama has brought more joy and more love into my life. More than I thought was possible.

Look at this little guy. Sometimes I am filled with so much joy for this little man that I do not know what to do?! Squeeze him ? Squeal with excitement ? Munch on his little cheeks? I find myself daily instantaneously kneeling in gratitude for the blessing of motherhood. For Sam's little self in our family. Truly motherhood is a crowning blessing.

Tuesday, December 27, 2011

The Johnny tree

This Christmas eve macie and Kj decided to make a Johnny tree to put. By his grave site. We made ginger bread men and decorated them with little glasses like angel Johnny. When we took the tree Kj bore a powerful testimony of Jesus Christ. Johnny came as a little babe to this earth to teach us of our savior. The savior also came to this earth to teach and lead us. We sang silent night and joy to the world around Johnny's headstone and tree. It was beautiful.
One of the song lines was "mother and child" and I could not help but think of how much macie loves Johnny. I thought of how Mary loved Jesus and how Mary must of aches so deeply as she saw her son suffer as he did for us. I thought of Macie watching her little Johnny suffer as he did. It is amazing how life turns out. I am so grateful for my sisters example of faithful motherhood. She is a rock. She is so strong yet delicate and loving. She is in part how I visualize Mary the mother of god. I love her so dearly and am blessed to be her sister. We love Johnny and we can't wait to be with him forever. I know that through Jesus Christ we can be reunited and that all our sorrows are for a godly purpose if we will let the light of the world into our hearts. Just as Macie and Kj have done.

Monday, December 26, 2011

Merry Christmas !

Could he be any cuter? Seriously he melts my heart every time he pulls out his gummy grin.
We had a wonderful Christmas filled with family and gift giving. I really worked at focusing my Christmas season around Christ because quiet frankly it is hard to with all the bustle of Christmas gifting. Let's just say it was a success. I am so grateful for the saviors eternal and infinite sacrifice. Through the blessing of Prayer I feel that I have drawn closer in thought word deed and desire to our heavenly king. There is nothing more satisfying or rewarding as is growing in harmony with god. I am so grateful for this.

I am so grateful for the supportive and loving family that we have. They are so dear to us. There is nothing like spending time with family! Sam sure enjoyed his new toys and sailor clothes. More pictures coming soon of his adorable little Christmas self. It was a great first Christmas for Sam the sailor!

Monday, December 12, 2011

Not so brilliant mommy moment

This morning I had Sam wrapped onto me with the moby wrap. We LOVE the moby wrap it is my favorite baby "extra" we use it daily. So I had Sam in the moby and he was ready for his morning nap. I was trying to finish some house work so I gave him WRAPPED candy cane to play with. He loved it about 20 min later I smelled peppermint so I went to the mirror and he had opened the candy cane and was SUPER quietly sucking all the peppermint juices that he could possibly get to ! Ah! It was all over his little face! All the corn syrup and red dye! So I learned my lesson. Sam is getting big! He was pretty sad when I took it away. Poor guy. Not to mention it was kind of cute since he was wearing his Christmas Grammy Jammie's and sucking on a candy cane. Oh well.

Thursday, December 8, 2011

New toy

So we found has a new favorite toy! An orange, silicone, baking cup. For making cupcakes and such. He literally chomps on this for HOURS! It cracks me up. He gets super excited when he sees it, and LOVE mashing, chewing, and pulling this little guy. It's super cute!

Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Sleepy nugget

I love that every morning I get to wake up to this little guy snuggled up next to me! Can I say heaven. I am just waiting for him to wake up and I feel so grateful for his little self in my life. He is an angel.
Last night I had a migraine and Sam just decided to stay up till 12:30! Usually he is in bed at 8:30. Zach was awesome and played with Sam the whole time until he was tired enough for sleep. Thank you Zach! I love life as a mother and I love my dear zachery. Even when there are late nights, and sleepy nuggets.

Monday, December 5, 2011

Mustache magic

We have been having a little too much fun over in these parts with the mustache me app for my iPhone. Grand isn't it? There will definitely be more posts with fantastical mustaches here and there. Enjoy!

Oh yeah and the pictures with Sam and the bottle are my favorite. He doesn't drink or eat from a bottle, it is more of a play time activity. He gets super excited as he chomps on the end, while getting a little snack. Super cute.

Saturday, December 3, 2011

1st thanksgiving for Sam and an abundance of pictures

Sam had his first thanksgiving at nana and papa fins house. we had such a fun time and lots of yummy food. After the long drive ( not really but for a little guy in the car seat it was long) to Orem, Sam had his first real scaredy attack ! My whole family was at the house (except elder finlinson in korea! Hooray) and it was kind of loud with lots of people all excited to see him, and he kind of freaked out. It was a new experience. I nursed him and he finally calmed down after ten minutes of screams. So sad, but alas he had a wonderful time and warmed up to the big loving family who like to laugh and kiss his little toes and hold his little self . So in the end I know that Sam is as thankful for all the family and especially cousins Eden, Eva, and Leila who he would giggle and smile at. And I am grateful for little nieces who are so gentle and excited to see Sam all the time. We had a wonderful time but really missed all of Zachs family who were so far away! (we were super excited that Elliot could come down from byui and be with us!) We wish we could see the whole fam this holiday season, but I guess that's why we are thankful for iPhone communication and Skype ! Anyway thanksgiving was great, I think we all got rejuvenated after family time and the big ol feast! Can't wait till Christmas!
We also got to see Ryan and his new fiancé Michelle with her sweet little girl Ellie. We are so excited for that cute little family !

Did I mention?

We got iPhones and I think they are the greatest invention ever! I am going to start blogging again cause it is now so easy to do while I have some spare time feeding Sam!
And for a little treat here is Sam with his next door buddy Isaac who is my friend Kandi's little guy! We love having them over to play! And... Sam meeting dearest Kristen crespo who lives so far away in Texas. Boo. But we were so glad to see them over thanksgiving !

Life around here lately...

Sam has been such a fun little buddy ! He wakes up every morning with a big gummy grin! He wiggles around all over the floor and LOVES to have daddy play time and coo at mommy. Zach recently got an iPad that he uses for school and when it came in the mail I had to take a picture of Sam enjoying the new packages. Anyway we have really been enjoying each other in our little ephraim apartment. I try and go on a walk with Sam everyday. He is starting to learn how to crawl and push himself up all by himself! Where did time go ? I think it was just the last post that he was born!!! Oops. I also started doing once a month cooking freezer meals and we are locing it as a family! Check it out at Anyway I feel very grateful for Zacherys hard work and Sam's sweet smile. I love being a mother and I sure love my boys!

Tuesday, August 2, 2011

Just in case ...

I wrote a couple of posts about Sam and our hospital adventures. You can find them earlier in the blog roll, because I dated them they didn't appear at the top. So, if you'd like to go back and read those you're welcome to it.

Zach T Power

Saturday, July 23, 2011

Week Three

You are growing! At your two week appointment you were 4lbs. 110z.! Then this week at your 3 week Dr. appointment you were 5lbs. 6.5oz! Dr. Weipert was shocked! You gained 11.5 oz. in 7 days! The goal for premie babies is to gain an oz. a gained at least and oz and a half each day! Keep up the good work! It does not surprise me that you gained so much weight, you eat 10 times a day (more than the average of 8) and you eat till milk runs out of your mouth. I have to put burp clothes every where when I feed you because you try to eat so fast that milk gets all over your face. It does not help that my milk pours out with out you even having to suck! You have to stop and catch your breath every few gulps. Daddy thinks it is the cutest thing he has ever seen. By the way Dad use to get after me for saying 'cute' too much! He is now saying 'cute' at every little thing you do, and wear. He dressed you in a little blue striped jammy suit and could not get enough cuddles from you early this morning. He loves you so much and is always wanting to help. You two are going to have so much fun!

Week Two

Sam, you are such a strong little guy! While you were in the NICU, one of your nurses, Kathy who was one of our favorites, said that she heard you crying, so she went to check on you. You had rolled over and scooted down to the end of the isolet with your tummy up and over the sponge roll that protected you! I have no idea where you got the strength but you got it! Dad says it is your monkey jump. It is also somewhat difficult to change your diaper because you are a wiggly worm with the strongest legs! Nana and Uncle Tyson cannot believe how you hold your head up and you are only 2 weeks old! Amazing little guy!
You are a very good baby. You are very content and happy. We always see you looking around trying to figure things out. A few days ago I ate a whole bag of cherries and that really upset you! I could not get you to keep your milk down, and you were crying in so much pain. I felt so bad. Dr. Branham said that your little system is intolerant to Corn and Cherries, not forever, but just for a while. Ironically I ate tons of cherries and fresh corn on the cob all day that day! I am so sorry that you had to go through that!
Sam, you are eating very well! You wake up before each feeding, every 2-3 hours. You always manage to give the most heart warming smiles while I feed you. I love it! Feeding you is one of my favorite things. I love to sit there with you on my lap while your little dark eyes peer up at me. I love to sing 'I am a child of God' 'I lived in heaven' 'sweet hour of prayer' and 'the King of Love my Shepard is'. You really like music. I am so grateful for your little self to be here with us. You are such a good, happy little guy. We love you so much.

Week one

Sam has been doing so so well. The Doctors are absolutely shocked at the progress he is making. Sam was put in the NICU as a what they call a 'feeder grower'. He basically needs to just be able to eat and gain weight. He started being fed through a NG tube that went into his stomach. I was able to produce enough milk and colostrum right off the bat that he did not need formula! (I have so much milk that I am feeding my little nephew Johnny who is also in the NICU right now!) The nurse said I have enough milk to feed twins or more! I count that a major blessing! Another major blessing is that Sam is a natural breast feeding baby. The nurses call him a barracuda. We tried a non nutritive feed where he breast feeds but I pump right before, so he is only getting a full tummy from the NG tube. He LOVED it. They then upped him to one real breastfeed a day and Sam thought that was the best! He got to suck and get milk. He went for 41 minutes straight! The doctors quickly put him at 2 nutritive feeds a day, which he passed so they went on to 4 of the 8 feeds to be nutritive. He was slowly gaining weight and eating so great! He got to come home from the NICU after being there only 11 days which is amazing! There are still multiple babies in the NICU who have been there for 28 days plus who still are stuck on non nutritive feedings! Sam really has done so so well. The doctor said that in his 2o plus years of working in the NICU he has never seen a baby like Sam who does so amazingly! It was so nice to bring Sam home, one of the reasons being that Zach and I were exhausted from driving to the hospital every 3 hours to feed him. By the time we got home from the hospital we would have 1 hour until we had to go back. This schedule went on all day/ all night. We both have loved having him home where I can wake up, feed Sam in bed, and go right back to sleep! Amazing!
The day he was discharged Zach brought Sam back from the car seat test and we got to take off all the leads and cords! He looked like a fresh baby. I have never seen Zach so happy to be with his little son, going home, cord free! We could not believe how tiny and adorable Sam looked in his little car seat. It was all such a great experience.
This is random but Zach and I thought that the hospital beds were so comfy! Maybe it was because we were so exhausted, but really we give them an A+!

Friday, July 22, 2011

Part II

The 3 of us got to the hospital at 3:30am. I was worried about transferring to a hospital that I had not received care at, but I LOVED my experience at AF hospital. The nurse took me to a triage room and I was dilated to a 4 and 100% effaced!! Wow. They left us in the room for an hour as they watched my progress and sure enough after an hour I was to a 5 plus. Next step, I was admitted and given a labor and delivery room that had a beautiful view of the Timpanogos Temple. All the nurses said it was their favorite. The contractions were getting stronger, and I began vocalizing during each one. I was so grateful that the hospital really was open to doing whatever I wanted to do. I felt totally comfortable, and all the staff was amazing! My mom, Zach and I continued through the night dealing with the contractions. I was pleasantly surprised at how easy, or rather doable the contractions were. Soon enough I was dilated to a 9 plus and so ready for the baby to come. The nurse broke my water, which I am not sure if that was a good thing in the long run, but oh well. When my water broke it was the most relieving feeling ever. So much pressure was removed. Soon after the labor began to get really intense. I loved every second of it, and I know that sounds crazy. I remember I started to cry because I felt such love and gratitude. I remember saying, "I love my baby. I love my little Sam. " "I am going to see him so soon!" I also said over and over, "I never want an epidural, I love this." I really did. It was such an unexpected experience. The nurses kept saying that I had the ideal labor. They told me to call them in when I had the urge to push. Unfortunately that urge never came! I was in transition for 3.5 hours and could never dilate to a 10 for whatever reason. I remember praying and praying for the urge to push, I just wanted to help him out, but he would not drop down. The first few hours were very manageable, very intense and painful, but doable. I remember noticing something changing in the labor pain where instinctually I knew something was not right. I have never been in labor before, but I just knew that something was hurting more than it should. Something was wrong. We did not know at the time, but my placenta was detaching from the uterus. I was bleeding so so much but the nurse was not worried about me so she was not checking on me that often. I got to the point where I looked down at my arms and they were stark white, I felt clammy and dead. It was like I could feel the life draining from me. At this point I knew I could not go on any longer, but that something needed to change because with losing so much blood from the placenta coming off was causing major pain and my energy was just about gone. In my attempt to communicate with words, which is so difficult when you are in your own little labor land, I said, "I need an epidural." In my mind I remember thinking no it is not the epidural I need, but something needs to happen cause something is wrong. My mom and Zach so graciously said, "Ky you can do it. You made us promise that we would not let you do that. You can do it, you are so close!" We all kept thinking that Sam would make his arrival any time, but he wouldnt come through. When Zach and my mom saw that I looked like I was going to faint from lack of blood they got the nurse who then quickly got the doctor, and they very quickly saw that I was having an abruption and Sam needed to come out quickly. Because I was dilated fully, and the doctor was awesome, I did not have a C section! Wahoo! Within 8 min of the Doctor arriving, Sam was born. I remember being rolled on my back and seeing 15 people fill the room. There were people there to help Sam, 2 people trying to put an IV in, and nurses on both sides of me pushing my legs up to get ready and push. Zach and my mom were on each side of me giving me encouragement! At this point I did not know what was going on, but I knew Sam would be fine, I just needed to get him out. They put an oxygen mask on me, but I thought it was drugs because I felt SO good after breathing it...My body obviously did not have enough blood! The doctor pulled Sam down into my birth canal and told me to push. I pushed so so hard that I popped my IV out! They quickly tried to put it in again but the urge to push was so strong. It was the most intense feeling I have ever had. I remember pleading with the nurses doing my IV to hurry cause I wanted to push. After a few pushes, an episiotomy, and forceps Sam was born into this beautiful world! They put him on my chest and then he was whisked away to the nursery to be taken care of. His lungs had filled with blood from the abruption, but once that was removed his lungs were fine. It sounds like such a crazy experience, and it was, but I truly loved it. I was so glad to be there and bring my little man into the world. I sound like a crazy woman, but I loved that I felt everything and that I knew what was going on with my body. I would not want to do the abruption part again because everyone has said that that added way more pain to the actual labor. Zach was such a perfect support for me while in labor. He never panicked or did not know what to do. He rubbed my hands and feet, he talked with me, he supported me literally when I could not take my weight. My mom also was so helpful. They were the perfect birth team! They sang to me when I was trying to stay so focused, and they would sing hymn after hymn. Zach finally ran out of songs to sing and began singing Jesus wants me for a sunbeam! I remember thinking, "really?" We laugh pretty hard about it now. They both say that their testimonies of the atonement grew "3 sizes" that day as they sang the line, "Thou didst bleed and die for me." They were wiping tears away as they sang songs about the Savior and his sacrifice. I feel so extremely blessed that everything went so well, even though it was an emergency at the end! I definitely loved the whole experience.

Welcome Samuel Taylor Power! Part 1

He is here! A lot earlier than we expected, but we are just so happy that our little man is healthy and strong and here in our arms! I began having contractions on tuesday June 28th in the evening. I knew they were contractions because they were every 20 minutes apart and they were somewhat painful, unlike the uncomfortable Braxton hicks contractions I had been having since I was 18 weeks pregnant. I decided to just wait it out and see if they went away. They stayed all night, all wednesday and all Thursday. Wednesday night I called my midwife to see what I should do. She had me head into the birth center first thing Thursday morning where I was given an anti cramp tincture that should stop my labor. They also checked me and I was 70% effaced and dilated to a 2. I was going into labor! They sent me home and had me on bed rest. I could not believe it! I spent my time sewing a dress, and trying to keep my mind from focusing on the contractions. Thursday night I had my family baby shower at my parents house where we were staying, and the whole time my labor was picking up, although no one knew what was going on! As I was opening presents I would kind of zone out and stare at everyone as I tried to smile and focus on the contraction. Once the last present was opened I went straight down to my bedroom and laid down. I could not believe that this was happening. I was somewhat worried because if he decided to come now I could not deliver at the birth center that I wanted to be at, but would have to go to the hospital. Zach and my mom kept saying, if he can just wait 2 weeks you can still deliver at the birth center, but I had a feeling that he was not going to stay in there that long! Zach gave me a blessing Thursday night because I was concerned that I was in pre term labor. One of the lines that was said, was that "I would be surprised with what my true desires are." After the blessing we both felt peace, but I had a feeling that this little guy was coming. At first I thought my desire was to have my baby at the birth center when he was full term, but I was overcome with the feeling that my true desires are to do Heavenly Father's will for me. This brings the most joy and happiness. My sister Macie packed a birth bag for me and then Zach and I laid down to go to bed. No one seemed to think that the baby would really be coming. I did not go to sleep but I laid there and breathed through each contraction. The contraction pain was interesting because in a weird way I liked it. I could feel my cervix opening and the pressure pushing him down. When I tried to wake Zach up he was so groggy that it took several tries and several contractions. We called my midwife who said I should get to the hospital. The contractions were coming ever 5-10 minutes apart, and while I was on the phone with her I began to throw up, a sign of active labor. Zach and I began laughing and wandering around the room trying to figure our what to take! It was 3 am in the morning. I put on one of Zach's shirts, and Zach put on a nice pair of slacks and a button up shirt. Later we laughed that Zach go all dressed up for the occasion when it was about to get quite messy. My mom and Zach and I got in the car and headed for American Fork Hospital. I felt great. The contraction would come, I would focus through it, and then I felt like a million bucks! I was so excited that this really was it! Our baby was coming!

The Pregnancy

Now that Sam is here I miss feeling his little movements inside all day and night. It amazes me that my body created such a perfect little body that functions completely on its own. What a miracle. I did not have the easiest pregnancy, but I am grateful for all the enjoyable little moments I had while this little guy was being built. I loved each night how I would lay there and spent time with Sam as he would do gymnastics inside. I loved going on walks outside to get fresh air, to stretch my legs, and sometimes to help me from throwing up:) I loved that Zach and I grew closer together as he cared for me in times when I could not get out of bed or even venture into the kitchen for a second to find food. I am grateful that Zach was so loving when I would "worship the porcelain throne" (as my institute teacher would say) and Zach would hold my hair back and help me along. I am grateful for the moments of joy that filled me so fully that I have a little boy growing inside. Those were moments of intense love that will never be forgotten. I miss in a strange way the many funny memories that were made while I was very sick. Ones like racing home from the library and barely making it to the front door when I threw up all over the front door. By the time I got inside and rags to clean it up it was frozen on pretty solid. yuck. Or when I had to run out of the ballet classes that I taught at Snow College in an attempt to make it to the bathroom. The most memorable story that follows along those lines is one night while I was saying prayers with Zach I speedily jumped up and ran to the kitchen sink, but I missed and threw up on the kitchen floor. As I was throwing up in the sink Zach came running to help me. The lights were off and he slipped and fell splat on the linoleum floor. We were laughing hysterically, but my laughs made us laugh even harder because the were intertwined with the most disgusting sounds that accompany vomiting. Sorry that is kind of too much information. Aside from these moments of nausea the pregnancy was good. I loved feeling Sam grow bigger each week inside of me. I loved reading all about labor and pregnancy. I loved being pregnant so much despite the nausea that I saw a picture of my pregnant friend who will have her baby in a few weeks and I instantly started planning the soonest I could have another baby! I love being a woman, and find it such a great blessing that I can create life, and nurture it into this life. What could be more amazing. Truly womanhood and motherhood are synonymous with divinity.

On a funny note here is Zach when he was very pregnant....just not with a baby. :)

This picture was taken the sunday before Sam was born. I was 35 weeks along exactly in this picture.
28 weeks and feeling great!
27.8 weeks. I had just finished my pregnant work out video that I loved.

24 weeks...still feeling really sick.
23.5 weeks
20 weeks... and wearing the dress that I bought with the birthday money from Eric. Thanks!